Sandpaper

I sometimes think of my self as sand paper, A smart-ass, tough-talking, gin sucking SOB. A rough cold calculating bitch who some how smooths the edges of the life's of people around me. Like i said sandpaper a scratchy, persistent, wrong-way-rub that leaves every thing more even.
I waz born going against the grain even from birth, after the DR's put my ma in to a drug educed labor i still took my sweet ass time, 24 hrs to be exact to get my red, goo covered, ass out into this wonderfull wourld.
My ma is very Catholic so i am pagan, the world says a tated up freak like me should com from white trash well, both my parents are extremely educated. I was a junkie who waz supposed to die of an OD never mind make nething of herself and now i work on Main n Hastings as a front line addictions support worker while studying to get my RN. I was suposed to be straight get married n have grand-baby's for my ma to croon over, instead I'm more than likely to settle down with a woman and adopt.
Like i said sand paper always going against the grain, but in doing so i think iv showen others that they can change as well, what i mean is i was a junkie who was addicted to crystal a substance on 3%of ppl can kick, iv been clean for 8 yrs and have an post secondary education. I was suposed to be straight but am out n proud hopefully giving queer kids out their strength to be who they really are,,, ect
Its not easy but its who i am.
lol. A smart-ass, tough-talking, gin sucking SOB.